The Spiritual Practice of Getting Honest with Myself

The temperature here in Seattle might reach 100F today and even for someone like me who loves the hot weather this is a little much.  The garden isn’t too happy either.  The tomatoes and beans stop setting fruit and of course anything that isn’t being watered is shrivelling up and dying.  All that to say there is a reason I am a little later than usual with this post this morning.  However it is worth waiting for.

This morning our post is by Jonathan Brink – The Spiritual Practice of Getting Honest with Myself.  Jonathan is Managing Director of Thrive Ministries, a non-profit ministry focusing on creating missional discipleship communities and spiritual formation.  He lives in Folsom California.  He blogs at Missio Dei


Why is it that I’m always the last one who can see it?

It’s that moment when something is broken in my life and I can’t see it.  My wife and friends can.  My children and my neighbors can.  But I can’t.  It’s like the very nature of the problem is to blind me to the problem.  And to make it worse, the more everyone points it out, the more I seem to protect it, as thought the problem is me.  And it’s not.  The problem is the problem.  But as long as I hold onto it, I can’t tell the difference.  And the longer I hold onto it, resisting the gentle and not so gentle reminders of the world around me to “LET IT GO”, the more it gets embedded within me so that I can’t tell the where I stop and the problem starts.  I literally become blind to the problem.  And in the process I have become my own worst enemy, protecting that which destroys me.

I sometimes wonder if this blindness is what Jesus was talking about when he said:

“though seeing, they may not see; though hearing, they may not understand.”

Jesus was saying that it is possible to see but not see?  I get that.  Its like being the only one in a crowded room who can’t see the “Stupid” sign on my back.  Everyone is laughing but I’m not willing to pull it off.  read the entire article